翻自己的舊文章看到「危險性遊戲」,無可救藥地回想起The Verve的這首Bitter Sweet Symphony。
你有沒有曾經在聽了別人對你所做所為的真正想法之後,背脊發涼大徹大悟?或許是他跟別人說的傳回你耳中,或許他吵架時忍不住說出實話,總之你聽了才知道,他對你說的做的感到不認同與不屑,原來他不想聽,你也不該說。然後想到以前說了、做了多少,想到他多麼不願意聽,突然頭皮麻了起來。
最悲傷的一點是,你改不掉了,唯一的方法只有完全隱藏起來。每個人都在自己的框架中,I can't change my mould...就如同這段歌詞:
Well I've never prayed
But tonight I'm on my knees, yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airwaves are clean and there's nobody singing to me now
No change, I can change, I can change, I can change
But I'm here in my mould, I am here in my mould
And I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mould, no, no, no, no, no
Have you ever been down?
I can't change it you know, I can't change it...